Mindless memories, swallowing love
Pain and insecurities wrestling my moods
Day-by-day the dread of living, looms
Trusting anyone is out of the question
Love isn’t worth the cost if another betrayal
Punching through the dark days
One step at a time, seemingly dull
Not caring at all anymore, for anyone
Bewildered that love always floats on by me
Making the transition back to myself
Prepared to be alone in loving life again
Crowded in my memories
Sifting through the ashes, rising like a phoenix
Looking beyond horizon, not ready to fly
Changed, but forever scarred, again and again
Paranoid delusions shrouded in reality
Come and love me fully, I dare you to try
Traumatized by loves lies and deceit
Count on my guard being up and constant
To the takers and the haters
The cheaters and the manipulators
I see your game and I raise it
Men have come and men have gone
Who will be the one to understand
Bear my burdens and share the load
Who will stay and be my forever
Through the ups and downs to come
Wanting nothing more than to be released
From hurtful memories into his infinite love
The protector of my heart who will guard it
Keep it from harm and endures the fight
Come to me my love
Be my eternal destiny
©Wendy Poole
August 5, 2013