What does it mean to be a woman of noble character?  To be worthy of so much more?  To shine in the light, to be set apart from the rest, to be an example to others through actions, behaviors and character.  I hope that I am a bright light to others who live in darkness and shame.  Those who have no conscious about the manner in which they live their lives from one day to the next or how they treat others in their lives. I was asked years ago to think of one of the happiest couples I know, to think upon the woman.  Did I look up to her?  Is she someone I hold in high esteem?  Did she love God and all His gifts in her life.  Sure there are many women around the world we can call heroes, famous people.  When I think of a woman of good character, I remember what it means to be a Proverbs 31 woman:

Proverbs 31:10-31

10Who can find a virtuous woman? For her price is far above rubies. 11The heart of her husband doth safely trust in her, so that he shall have no need of spoil. 12She will do him good, and not evil, all the days of her life. 13She seeketh wool, and flax, and worketh willingly with her hands. 14She is like the merchants’ ships; she bringeth her food from afar. 15She riseth also while it is yet night, and giveth food to her household, and a portion to her maidens. 16She considereth a field, and buyeth it; with the fruit of her hands she planteth a vineyard. 17She girdeth her loins with strength, and strengtheneth her arms. 18She perceiveth that her merchandise is good; her lamp {candle} goeth not out by night. 19She layeth her hands to the spindle, and her hands hold the distaff. 20She stretcheth out her hand to the poor; yea, she reacheth forth her hands to the needy. 21She is not afraid of the snow for her household; for all her household are clothed with scarlet. 22She maketh herself coverings of tapestry; her clothing is silk and purple. 23Her husband is known in the gates, when he sitteth among the elders of the land. 24She maketh fine linen, and selleth it, and delivereth girdles unto the merchant. 25Strength and honor are her clothing, and she shall rejoice in time to come. 26She openeth her mouth with wisdom, and in her tongue is the law of kindness. 27She looketh well to the ways of her household, and eateth not the bread of idleness. 28Her children rise {arise} up, and call her blessed; her husband also, and he praiseth her. 29Many daughters have done virtuously, but thou excellest them all. 30Favor is deceitful, and beauty is vain, but a woman who feareth the LORD, she shall be praised. 31Give her of the fruit of her hands, and let her own works praise her in the gates.

I consider myself a woman of immeasurable worth.  God tells me I am in the blessings in my life, even after all the pain I have endured.  I have heard it from close family friends and from my own daughter.   I try to keep a calm spirit and a joyful heart.  I try not to let things anger me.   It is hard to keep my chin up and keep pushing forward, when it feels as if life at times has robbed me of some happiness.  I try so hard.  I put up a good fight for what is right.  There have been several occasions in the last few years in which this woman, this woman God has created me to be, was tested to the limits beyond the bounds of which I can scarcely stomach.  Beyond what I know in my heart.  I cannot bear another disapproval or rejection.  I hurt so deeply at times.  I have wanted to disappear forever.  To never have to feel another moment of pain in my tender heart from loving another.  I feel as if I am wasting away.  These wounds that tear at the essence of what it means to be a woman.  This woman who cares deeply and loves passionately in so many aspects of life.  Whose pure, innocent joy, can be rendered lifeless within, all because of the senseless, careless, undermining, cruel character of another human being.  Then I am reminded I am a child of God.  A person of noble character would never deceive, hurt, lie, cheat or speak to me in a manner of shame. 

Here I am, a woman created from man’s rib, to serve and love him. To give to him as a woman of worth.  To love and respect him.  To care for his children and be responsible in life in all manners, in behaviors, attitudes, finances, household concerns and above all, to do so with a happy heart.  To BE, a Proverbs 31 woman.  To me, this is my gift, this is how I CHOOSE to conduct my life.  To have the Holy Spirit guide my thoughts and lasso them under control.  To praise my efforts.

God knows my character better than I know it myself.  I am happy to say I am a honorable woman, who has a big heart and is driven in life to want what is good, noble, fair and of value.  To seek that which is best for others that I hold dear to me.  Yes, I have a standard by which I conduct myself internally.  Some may even consider this snobby or prissy.  I try to set a good example and not just talk about it.  When people look at me they see goodness and a little bit of feistiness!  I try not to hurt others.  This is damaging to my spirit.  It crushes me, so I avoid it whenever possible.  This is the essence of my heart.  The sensitive, loving, woman who has been shaped by God.   Yet, so often, others don’t care and they malign my name.  Consider the source.  Do they even know God?  Do they have a personal relationship with Him.   Have they ever?  Do they even care where their life is headed?  How they treat others?  Do they care or do they live a life of darkness and misery?  Do they count it all joy when they fall into various trials?  God cares for me and pulls me past the hurt.  Each and every time, I am delivered and my heart beats stronger. 

Some will read this and think, blah blah blah…..there she goes, talking about God again!  Or that I am stuck up or better than you are.  No. I am a woman.  I am not a rock without feelings.  I have too many in fact!  Trust me, there are times I wish I could shut down.  I am not perfect but I care, I try harder than most and I fight a good fight for what is right and noble.  So today, I am happy. I am happy I have people who make me feel as if Iam a woman of good character and that I feel pretty and I am loved for being who I am.  I may be blunt, opinionated, sometimes even demanding, but the bottom line is that when you go at life alone as a woman, its tough.  Sometimes it sucks in fact and you wanna take it out on the world!  Some people do!  Life makes me strong.  Life HAS made me strong, but through it all, I am a still a worthy woman.  I enjoy being a woman and I will continue to share love for others, in spite of their horrible behaviors.  Some I will simply walk away from because they damage my spirit.  They don’t deserve the likes of someone like me in their miserable lives.  I am not here to save them anyway.  God has brought me this far in my life with so much success AS A WOMAN on my own that I can only anticipate much of the same.  If not, that’s ok too!  🙂

Thank you God for allowing me the desire to be the woman you ask of me.  To be a woman of worth.  To know my life is more fulfilled each day I can actually do it!  I am set apart and am proud to be yours.

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